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Wednesday, 16 August 2006 04:08 |
| | Janese Johnson |
Over the years I have heard so many people, including myself, get what we prayed about or asked for in our life, only to regret the real results.
As much as we might think that we are able to see the greater picture and know what we really want in life, most often our desires and concepts are short-sighted and do not reveal the whole picture over the course of time.
Whether
you have asked in prayer for something or set an intention or desire,
they both carry the same energy, which is a request from you to
something or someone outside yourself to meet your request.
I have examples
that I would like to share with you regarding two different requests
that I have made that did not turn out at all how I expected or wanted.
One request was a very conscious request and the other was unconscious.
The conscious
request happened in my early 20s. In my mind I already had a very full
life and was ready to meet my husband and get married. It was suggested
by others that instead of falling for any guy, I should do it
consciously and make a list on what I wanted in a partner. I made out a
very long and detailed list. The list went something like this:We would
both care about making a difference on the planet; we both cook and
clean and help with kids equally; he would want to adopt kids; be a
good friend to me; be fun and adventuresome ... etc. As I said, my
list was quite lengthy.
After writing my
list, I shared it with some friends of mine. Their reply was something
to the effect of, "Forget it, you will never meet anyone like this."
Even though I
was a little discouraged by their responses, I was not giving up on my
dream. I would rather stay single than be with someone who I thought
was unconscious. A few weeks later, my friends that I showed my list to
introduced me to the man who matched my list. It was so exciting, we
both knew immediately that we were the "ones" for each other. Within a
very short time we were married and our life was certainly one of
adventure and equality ÇƒÓ just exactly what I wanted. We traveled,
fostered 17 children, adopted five children and he managed my national
business that was very successful at the time. We had a lot of fun.
One day some
years later, when my husband was doing one of his rants, I realized
that I had forgotten a few things that were really important for me. I
somehow forgot all about emotional well-being, nurturing and romance.
My marriage was adventuresome, but really hard. My husband and I were
friends, but not really husband and wife ÇƒÓ and we both were very
critical of one another. Neither of us was really happy together. I
really wanted out because I felt emotionally abused ... UGH.
I had no idea
that emotional support, nurturing, romance and happiness should have
even been on my list because I was being very short-sighted at the
moment and had never been in a relationship long enough to know what I
really needed or even wanted; I just thought I did. I left the marriage
after 15 years ÇƒÓ nine years ago ÇƒÓ and now I just affirm for healthy and
loving for both sides because maybe I donët know what healthy means for
the long-term.
My unconscious
intention that manifested itself was more recent and was pointed out to
me by one of my daughters. Over the years I had made a comment to my
daughters that when all of them grew up and moved out, I was going to
get a small cabin in the middle of nowhere and enjoy a nice and quiet
life.
A couple years
ago when all my kids moved out, I, indeed, moved out to the middle of
nowhere, and it turned out to be a lot of work and was not as relaxing
as I had hoped for. I enjoyed the hikes and the beauty, but moved back
into town because it was not what I had believed it would be
Once again, I
saw that I had a concept on how something should or could be, and was
shown that I did not really have all the pieces in my mind when I was
putting in the requests.
So I am learning
to go to the core of my desire and not stay focused on the trivial
concepts. The core for all of us is happiness, healthiness, love,
nurturing, respect, integrity and abundance.
Whether it is
conscious or unconscious, prayer or desire, we are still asking for
something that we think we want. So the more we turn it over to the
core concepts, such as loving, healthy, everyone wins and various
balanced and healthy words, the more likely we will appreciate the
results.
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Janese Johnson
has been doing intuitive counseling nationally for more than 20 years.
She may be contacted at janesej-at-buncombe.main.nc.us.
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